Tag: struggle
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Monster, Part 2
It is desperately difficult to convince yourself that you have worth in order to bolster yourself when the fear that you are worthless is constantly validated by others. When your boyfriend of five years abandons you in a foreign country without a word, when your childhood friend informs you that they have no desire to…
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Monsters
I carry these monsters inside of myself, and they douse me in darkness on days when all I want to do is see the light. Every attempt to reach forward is a struggle. Contacting people to drag myself out of this place is so difficult when you are pressed with irrational fears of being unwanted…
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The Writer’s Dilemma
As a writer, I think that I have some lofty expectations for myself that reach far beyond the confines of my novels. I have been really feeling myself fall short in these last couple of weeks, though. Being November, during NaNoWriMo, I think it’s alright for me to touch on something that I’m sure a…
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Hope: The Seedy Underbelly
All my life, I have heard it said that one should never lose hope. People speak of hope as this wonderful thing that no person should ever be without. Hope is glorified as something that elevates your humanity and betters your existence. “Don’t lose hope” they say. Whatever you do, don’t lose hope. It is…
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Hello world!
Today, I feel quite wretched. I’m over here swallowing razorblades, knowing that I should probably get my tonsils removed to avoid going through this again and again. Being one who generally avoids doctors at all costs, I really can’t see actually doing anything but gritting my teeth until I recover. This is typical for me,…
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