Tag: mental illness
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The Charade
There was a time when I could write entire worlds without an ounce of strain. I could convey my feelings in prose or weave words into scenes that would unfold in the reader’s mind like the soft petals of a rose in bloom. I took it all for granted. It was my gift and I […]
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Stop Being Dicks
Whenever a well-known entity commits suicide, we’re subjected to at least a month or two of everyone spreading messages about suicide prevention. The main take-away is usually something along the lines of ‘reach out to your loved ones’ and ‘seek help if you need it’. The people who spread these messages and advice are well-intentioned, […]
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Two of Me
There are two of me. There is a girl that is full of hope and aspirations, who is motivated and goal-oriented. She is bright and quick to laugh, to sing, to be present in the little moments that make life worthwhile. She has a hunger to succeed and a heart full of empathy and compassion […]
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Monster, Part 2
It is desperately difficult to convince yourself that you have worth in order to bolster yourself when the fear that you are worthless is constantly validated by others. When your boyfriend of five years abandons you in a foreign country without a word, when your childhood friend informs you that they have no desire to […]
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Monsters
I carry these monsters inside of myself, and they douse me in darkness on days when all I want to do is see the light. Every attempt to reach forward is a struggle. Contacting people to drag myself out of this place is so difficult when you are pressed with irrational fears of being unwanted […]
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The Rambler
I have been having a lot of trouble with my eyes lately. It started on Tuesday night, when I acquired a pretty sizable blind spot where I couldn’t see what I was typing or read anything. It wasn’t a black spot, it was just… empty. We called it an ocular migraine and I went to […]
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Red to Brown
Ever since I wrote here the other day, I’ve been trying to decide what to write next. I gave myself such a lofty standard, that I would only write the truth, and now it seems that the truth is far too dangerous. I keep getting this mental image of myself going to a therapists and […]
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Meet the Author
It occurs to me that I spend a lot of time backspacing. In retrospect, I can see that my entries here are well guarded, heavily edited articles that don’t reflect a true image of who I really am. I know that I have written extensively about mental illness, but I almost always refer to it […]
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Depression is NOT Sadness
What many people cannot seem to be able to fathom is that circumstances and situations do not dictate one’s mental health. No matter how you try to communicate to them that depression is an illness, they will continue to confuse it with sadness and become frustrated with you for not “being more positive” or for […]
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