Maeby Today

Whew.

Today was definitely profitable. A friend consented to help me rid myself of my storage unit, which cuts out another monthly expense. I am so grateful that I have people in my life willing to sacrifice 4+ hours to doing me a favor. Without him, I honestly don’t have a lot of confidence in myself that I could have gotten all the items being stored to new destinations. I hope that those that profited from my ridding myself of the unit are pleased with their new items and that they will some day return the kindness if they ever know of someone in need of cheap/free furniture.

I have yet to hear from my prospective new employer regarding a start date or other vital information pertaining to employment. I’ll admit that I am growing rather anxious and yet I feel that I have done my due diligence in following up with the general manager and that it would be frowned upon for me to call again after he had assured me that the paperwork should be in order soon. In the meantime, I am going to report to the unemployment office as requested by the state so that there will not be too long a gap wherein I am receiving zero funds. I will, of course, report my employment the moment that I have confirmed it and have literally started. I have no intentions of attempting to deceive the state of Virginia. I somehow doubt I would get away with that, anyhow.

With support from Kristen, I have been sticking to the Atkins diet. I actually don’t find it to be that difficult on an ordinary day. I am never hungry and I always feel good about what I’m eating. I am keeping myself on a schedule and writing down everything I’m eating, which is very helpful for me. As someone with mild OCD tendencies, I excel with routine and can easily and happily eat the same menu every day. With a little tinkering along the way, I think I’ve found delicious ways to make each mail. The challenge comes when those around me are indulging in high carb foods that I once really enjoyed, such as pasta and waffles. Resisting, though, makes me feel so proud of myself.

Though I still have struggles to overcome, I find my new approach has been entirely rewarding. Striving toward being a more positive person is a goal that I feel helps me fight against my depression. I have found that, dealing with depression, setting small goals for one’s self is so beneficial. Even if my goal for the day was ‘get out of bed’, meeting goals is a rewarding feeling that heightens one’s self esteem and sense of self worth. My goals may have started relatively minuscule, with ‘get out of bed’, but now I’m up to ‘stick to Atkins’ and ‘resolve current issues rather than hide from them or pretend that they don’t exist’. The result has been that I’ve made several phone calls that I had been putting off and I now have to pay one less monthly bill. RESULTS!

I must admit to you all that I have a bit of an ace up my sleeve. I don’t feel comfortable in sharing it just yet but know that it is another result of my attempting to sort out my rather tangled up life. I feel so excited and so capable of being happy. Thank you for all of your support, encouragements and suggestions!